I got kicked out of my room today.

Granted, I went willingly. Roommate #1 wanted to speak alone with Roommate #2. 

I'm slightly hurt but it's a hurt I can't explain.

I wasn't wanted. 

My company, my opinions weren't desired.

I'm kind of proud of myself, I openly acknowledged the fact that I wasn't needed for the conversation.

But it still hurts. 

I don't think I've felt this kind of hurt in a while. 

I want to cry. I want to get the hurt and pain that's trapped inside out of me.

Girls, you and I will be together a long time. 

So let me tell you now:

There will be moments when you feel like this. 

Moments that you hurt, you ache, you grieve. 

I'm not trying to take away from all the good that you will feel. For you can't have one without the other.

Learn from me and don't hold it in.

Don't hold it back.

I'm not saying that you need to shout it to the world. 

What I am saying is to get it out of your body. 

Draw, paint, buy something if only to destroy it (an old roommate once smashed a pumpkin as a venting process--use only as a last resort), sing, dance, write, whatever it is, do that thing (Screaming into pillows is also common)

What do I do?

I will admit I hold a lot in. I do. Because I don't want people to know I'm hurting, I don't want them to worry. I make it a point to never cry in public (unless from laughter or the occasional movie--a very rare occurrence) or talk about my pains. 

I categorize things into: Always Talk About, Can Talk About, Maybe Talk About, and Never Talk About.

(I also categorize people but that's another story)

Sometimes I meet people that can hear things from the M.T.A or (the very rarest occasion) N.T.A categories. Most only hear things from the A.T.A or the C.T.A groups. 

Note: I'm liking all the acronyms. I feel businesslike...sort of.

The point, girls, is that don't hold it in. Get it out so that the healing can begin.

P.S. Always know that you can talk to me. No matter what it is, I am available to you. When you are ready.

Warning: do not be too violent. Smashing pumpkins is one thing, don't break things that can't be fixed and that you need to survive such as walls or plates or pillows or the like. Have a bonfire (in a safe environment) and roast marshmallows over the remains of broken relationship memories or horrible class assignments. Be safe, girls, SAFE.