Mirrors

Last night I was talking to a friend about dating. I was surprisingly blunt for which I feel bad. The main point of our chat was that he felt he didn't have anything to offer to a girl. Which I thought was ridiculous! He's a fantastic person who I think would be fun to date.

But it got me thinking about myself. I'm slightly self-centered, you know?

I looked at how much I've grown, I really have. Let me explain:

• The conversation itself. That conversation should never have happened. I'm an awkward person (but I will only ever claim 35% of your awkwardness) and I just usually stay far away from serious conversations like that.
• My bluntness. I am blunt at times, also sarcastic, nice, cold, funny, witty, I'm a lot of things. Aren't you so lucky to have me for a mom? But the thing is I have to be comfortable to let myself be blunt. Normally I'm not because I'm not sure how the other person will handle it. He can handle it (apparently? hopefully? oh well it already happened). 
• My self-confidence. My self-confidence is kind of low, something that I've been working pretty much all my life. Working at Disney though gave me a much needed boost. So while we were talking last night, actually after I left to go home, I was thinking about how I was slightly a hypocrite. I'm still working my confidence and yet there I was trying to, well I felt odd doing so. 

It was a good learning moment. He basically held up a mirror for me and I had a chance to look at myself. I am stronger than I thought, more confident than I thought. It was what I needed in a roundabout way.