Another thought on friends

I'm about to go on vacation. 

A family vacation.

Because of that I think it's time for a change. 

With this whole friendship business/mess (see yesterday's post), I need to get away.

Clear my head, breathe fresh air.

Run on the beach, that kind of thing.

The friendship that I was talking about yesterday, I got too clingy.

Which is not my thing and yet it is.

So I thought a little bit today why I do it. 

And I think it's because I want it to be here (lifts hand up) and I don't know if it's there or not.

So I try to spend time with the friend to get a read on it...

I liked him too much. That was the problem.

Well, yes and no. 

I hung out with another friend today. He was working on essays for med school applications and I was writing a new scene for my book (yes, girls, Mom's a writer...unpublished but still)

He was listening to Rachmaninoff and I was listening to movie soundtracks.

It was one of the most relaxing "hangouts" I've ever had. 

I wondered why that was. Why I was so comfortable, not needing to talk, just enjoying writing and the company.

Girls, this is something that I'm still trying to figure out...but it'll provide good material for you.

Something to learn from and all...