I meant to write one earlier but I ended up watching 2 different versions of Beauty and the Beast. Both were kind of cheesy (one had a terrible script and sub-par acting), the other was one that reminded me of my childhood (aka I've been watching that version since I was 4 or 5).
I came to a decision on the guy front. Right now, I'm really just trying to be friends with guys. Do I complain about not dating or not having guys interested in me? Yeah, totally. As I mentioned to my car friend from earlier this week, it's easier to focus/complain about guys than to focus on everything else in my life. He kind of agreed with me about that.
At the same time there is a guy that I like. I mean, I really like this guy. But right now, it is better for me to be his friend than try for anything more. I feel it's the right step for now. Will anything happen in the future? I don't know. Do I want anything to happen? Maybe. Yes, I do like this guy. Who knows though, it might turn out that we are better as friends than anything more. On this day, at this moment in time, I feel like working on our friendship and just being his friend, not pressuring for anything more, is the best possible decision.
It's not like I'm ready to be in a relationship anyway! And I think that's partly why I'm okay with the whole "being friends" thing. I may or may not have said it before but in the past if I liked a guy, I'd go straight for the flirting. Then it would get awkward (kind of like Greg's explanation starting at 6:30) and I'd run for the hills. No, I've never been in a relationship. But looking back, it's been a good thing. None of the guys I was ever interested were really right for me, even some that it would have been terrible to date. Not that they were terrible guys but we just didn't have anything in common, and there was even one guy who didn't treat me like a friend! Yeah, saved me from that bullet. (is that the phrase?)
So now, I'm just focusing on actually being friends with guys. Actually getting to know them. Do I focus a little too much on the guy that I like? Yeah, maybe a little. But anything that I've done to/for/around him, it was only things that I would do for any friend or would want done to/for/around me. Like teasing/making fun. We make fun of each other all the time. I may or may not have mentioned that (I can't keep track, this is one of the negative downsides of my superpower. I remember what others have told me, not always what I've told others) but we tease and make fun and have both said that it's easy to do so to the other.
Yeah, nothing I've done around him has been something that I wouldn't do around someone else. Okay maybe not around a boss. I can be professional, you know.
On a completely unrelated side note: remember when I said this would be a short one? Guess I lied...sort of.
But I am so proud of how I'm acting with him. And it's easy. That's the weirdest part. It's actually easy to be friends with him. Course, he also lets me have my way far too much.
A girl can only take so much power, you know?
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